First I was rushing around to get things completed before a short vacation to Providence, RI. I was pretty excited to come back and some posts up here. Instead, life was turned around several times because my dad was in a bad accident.
Currently, my dad has been diagnosed with delirium as a result of this accident. It’s really hard to see him like this, because he blurts out very serious statements one moment and really off the wall statements the next. In addition to the delirium there are bruises, broken fingers, broken scapula, and intense scabs from his body hitting the cement.
Amidst all of this, I thank God that my dad didn’t die. I’ve never been close with my dad and we didn’t have a relationship during my childhood, despite living in the same home till I was 13. The past several years I’ve been working to fix that because I’ve recognized that he the only dad I’ll ever have. I’m the only daughter he’ll ever have. I’ve been striving for us to talk and discuss life, despite our differences and how we choose to live life.
My mom likes to give gentle reminders about being thankful for safe travels from point A to point B. I’m thankful to make it to work every morning: I put my life in the hands of public transportation. I’m thankful that every flight I’ve ever had across the Atlantic Ocean and across the country has been successful. Those gentle reminders always include the reality of, “we’re not promised tomorrow”.
To some, that could be really morbid, but for my mom, brother, and I it’s the honest truth.
Look here, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we are going to a certain town and will stay there a year. We will do business there and make a profit.” How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. What you ought to say is, “If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that.” – James 4:13-15
And to expand a little more:
That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.
My dad wasn’t promised survival of his accident, but he has been given the past week to recover. There are many promised that God grants us, but our choices effect each and every day and how our tomorrow could be.
Thank you to those who have prayed, have been concerned, and reached out to my mom, brother, and I. It’s deeply appreciated.