This week has been a challenging week.  I’ve been mentally processing a lot of upcoming changes, very exciting changes, but a lot of them!  As they come along, I’ll share them with you all.

This morning I was on the subway on my way to work and listened to Shawn McDonald’s ‘Closer’ on repeat.  The more I listened and concentrated, the more I felt like crying.  It came to my attention that I haven’t been spending the time, or taking the time, to be with God as I should.  I haven’t been giving more than the starting and ending moments of my day.  Sure, there’s been some in between moments, but not what I know I’m capable of.  I know that because of this disconnect I’ve felt a little off and unlike myself.

Recently, I’ve been thinking about how sometimes my life is a little too routine.  I get so comfortable with said routine and these changes that I’m looking forward to will, conveniently, disrupt my routine.  I get bored with my routine, often.  I like change and I like being on my toes, but I’m just flustered when thinking about being prepared for these changes.

The only true way I’ll be prepared for these changes is by being closer to God.  Praying.  Reading.  Learning more about myself.

Closer by Shawn McDonald

Looking for a color in a shade of gray / Looking for love in a drop of rain / Trying to find change from the old mundane / Everything I do just feels the same / Spending my life out in the desert/ Been gone so long feels like forever / I just want to be closer to you / I just want to be closer, I am yours / You can have all of me anything, everything / I just want to be closer / A day without you is a thousand years / A day without you is a million tears / Tell me why do I run when I am in fear / Why do I run when you are so near / Spending my life out in the weather / Been gone so long and I need some shelter / Where ever you go / Where ever you are / I just want be there with you / I just want to be closer to you / I just want to be closer / I am yours / You can have all of me anything everything / I just want to be closer / I just want to be closer to you / I just want to be closer / I am yours / You can have all of me anything, everything / I just want to be closer / Looking for a color in the shade of gray / Looking for love in a drop of rain

Otherwise, I’ve had a really good day.  How about you?